Firstly, before I properly delve into the post, I just wanted to address the elephant in the room which is the new/old look to LJLV. I decided that although I loved my more editorial template, it just wasn’t working for me logistically and I spent a lot of time feeling that something was missing.
I considered the many looks this blog has had over the past four years and actually went back to an old template I had back in 2015. While I know blogging has moved into this new sphere of editorially perfect, magazine-esque shots I wanted to bring back a feel of the old school to my little space and embrace a more traditional look and so here we are.
I guess that leads me on to the subject of today’s post – perfection. I spend too long striving for perfection in my life, whether that be the perfect winged liner, perfect outfit or something a little more serious such as the perfect relationship or career. Everything we do these days is so curated and so considered and it made me seriously stop and think this week about how I’m approaching my life in this era of considered curation and how it’s making me feel. Last weekend I had an actual breakdown about my content. I spent about an hour crying because it didn’t look good enough and nothing was quite working for me, and that’s when I realised how much this online world can get you down sometimes. I was shocked that I had actually been brought to tears by something as ridiculous as taking pictures for a blog on the internet and it was the slap in the face that I needed to really take a step back and realise where my priorities lie.
Yes, I live and breathe this online space of mine. Of course I do, it’s my baby, my labour of love and hopefully something that I can turn into more of a career so I want everything I do on here to be to the best of my abilities, but sometimes I think we all need to take a step back and realise that things can’t be perfect 100% of the time and that is ok. Take these photos for example, most of them were out of focus or unflattering and taken in approximately 4 minutes flat while we were waiting for our Uber to arrive in Shoreditch last week. They’re not perfect by any means at all, but I think it is exactly that which makes me like them so much. I’m trying to be a little less hard on myself when it comes to content creation these days and let things flow a little more naturally rather than heaping a tonne of pressure on myself to conform to the super curated Instagram trends that we’re inundated with every day. That’s my two penny’s worth anyway, what are your thoughts?
Onto the outfit (albeit briefly) – I needed comfort. I had a six hour drive ahead of me and had just completed a morning of walking. I knew it would be cool but not cold in London and therefore opted for my favourite Zara slogan knit which reminds me a lot of the Balenciaga one we’ve all seen doing the rounds online, combined with my new Levis wedgie fit jeans which may just be my favourite jeans I’ve ever bought. I’m well aware that I say this every time I get a new pair of jeans but I still feel fairly new to the whole denim thing so work with me on this haha! Finally my slip on Vans made another appearance – I adore these shoes so much, I’m going to be so sad when it gets a bit too cold/wet to wear them in a few weeks. Praying for a snowy December but also for dry weather so I can continue to wear these babies – I’m essentially a walking contradiction.