Oh you guys, you have no idea how happy I am to be typing this, but I have honest to God fallen head over heels in love with blogging again and I’ve missed this feeling so much. Now just to reassure you, I never stopped loving it as such, but my relationship with blogging over the past couple of years has been a bit weird if truth be told.
When I first started this crazy journey back in 2014 I was a woman obsessed. All I ever thought about was my blog, I worked on it tirelessly, I spent every evening writing, every weekend taking pictures and honestly lived and breathed this online community. Then I moved to Manchester and had nobody to help me with photos and it got me down. I think that’s when I started to drift away from things a little and, although when I moved to London it picked back up a little, things were never the same.
I got too caught up in the numbers game, becoming obsessed with my stats, what campaigns I could secure, how much growth I was getting each month. I was constantly second guessing everything I did, frantically grasping at straws with my style trying to find a place where I fit into things and no matter how hard I worked on my blog I never really saw much of a return. I think it was probably obvious to everyone that I was having a bit of an identity crisis and it was really only myself at the time that couldn’t see it.
My move back home this year forced me to take a step back from everything for a while. While I was settling back into life up here and dealing with all the repercussions of my move, shooting blog content and Youtube videos had to take a bit of a backseat, as did my creativity. At the time I found this super frustrating and I was worried that it was going to destroy all of my hard work from the past few years but instead it’s been a huge positive as it’s forced me to really take stock of what I want, who I am, and the blogger I want to become. I feel like this past month has been a bit of a re-awakening for me and all of a sudden I’m excited to shoot looks again and excited to share them with you.
I’ve been frustrated when I haven’t had new content to share, not because I was worried about my stats or what it would mean for me career wise, but because all I’ve found myself wanting to do this past month is write and create again. I think my return to Chester, the place where I truly feel myself and feel happy, has had such a positive effect on me in this respect and finally for the first time in years I feel inspired, full of motivation and with a clear direction of where I want to go and what I want to do. I’m so excited to carry on sharing this journey with you all and I’m so grateful to everyone who’s stayed with me over the past 6 months and been patient while my life has fallen apart and I’ve slowly started to rebuild it again.
I think the last few months of 2018 are going to be the best ones yet, and I’m already excited for 2019 and what that’s going to bring for me!
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