A year ago, I probably wouldn’t have posted these photos. That probably seems crazy to a lot of people and even I’m sat here scratching my head and trying to work out why, but I just know I wouldn’t have done. I’d have found fault with how short my legs look, with how much weight I’ve put on since I started blogging. With my lack of abs, slightly larger upper arms or the fact that I’ve put weight on in my face too. And while I can still see all those things, I’m finding it wonderfully refreshing that I actually, quite frankly, don’t give a fuck anymore.
I’m not entirely sure where my new ‘idgaf’ attitude has come from, but in recent weeks especially I’ve just found myself caring less and less about what people think of me and it’s honestly wonderfully refreshing. I think a lot of it comes down to having bigger fish to fry in my life right now, and while I’d love to be living a totally stress-free existence, I’m quite glad that I can at least thank my current situation from easing my self-hatred if only for a summer.
I also think the heatwave has gone a long way towards helping me with this new mindset. The fact that it has been so hot in the UK this summer has meant that I’ve been pushed to experiment a little more with my wardrobe and step out of my comfort zone by baring more skin just in an effort to stay cool and not overheat. Where ordinarily in July I’d probably still be covering up my legs with tights or trousers, this year I’ve been forced to get my legs out, bare my stomach a little more and embrace a summer wardrobe.
Suddenly I’ve found myself loving these new clothes and the journey I have been on to find new styles that flatter my changing body shape. While I still want to tone myself up and get myself back in shape, I’m no longer letting this desire harm my perception of myself. I used to get so upset taking blog pictures because I’d hate the way they’d look, and I’d spend far too much time zooming in on my imperfections and worrying whether other people would notice. Now I’m happy to look through my photos and choosing enough to populate a blog post doesn’t feel like drawing blood from a stone.
Mum used to always tell me that when I got older I’d stop caring about the little things like this, stop caring what other people thought of me. I never believed her, and as each birthday rolled around I’d be looking out for this new devil may care attitude to arrive and it never did. It seems funny that in one of the biggest transformational periods in my 20s this has crept up on me without my noticing, but I am welcoming it with open arms and just hoping it sticks around for the forseeable future. I’m looking forward to two exciting new seasons to style my new pieces and shop for new additions to my wardrobe, I’m excited to continue to document those pieces on here and I’m even more excited to continue not really caring anymore if I look too fat or too thin or too curvy or too short.
Anyway, onto the outfit! I have been dying to showcase this little crop on the blog and I’m finally getting round to writing up this post this weekend! This is one of my favourite TK Maxx finds of the past few months – technically it’s supposed to be underwear but I feel like it works perfectly fine as a crop and in this weather I’m just going to embrace underwear as outerwear and be done with it. It’s by Tommy Hilfiger and was only £9.99 would you believe it! I never used to be a fan of TK Maxx as I could never find anything I liked but I am a firm convert and would highly recommend you checking it out if like me you like to shop luxury for less. I teamed it with my current favourite shorts – these mom shorts from Topshop are honestly SO damn comfortable, I’ve honestly lived in them over the summer and the denim has softened so well with the wear.
Finally I threw on these bold red Balenciaga dupes from EGO to finish the outfit off – I’m still not entirely sure they worked with this combination tbh and I’m struggling to find ways to style them for the summer but I hope they’re going to come into their own with pairs of joggers when the milder weather hits in the Autumn. Definitely not ones to wear in the wet weather though just FYI, not only are they definitely not waterproof, I got caught in a summer shower the other day and the dye ran a little onto the soles in the wet. Devastated!
Top: Tommy Hilfiger | Shorts: Topshop | Shoes: EGO
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