I am always on the go, constantly working on new ideas, new projects, my blog and everything else in between. At this stage, I’ve completely forgotten how to relax – in fact, I even wrote a blog post on that very subject just a few months ago – and an evening without a full list of tasks to accomplish scares me far more than it should.
See, I don’t know what to do with myself anymore when I’m not busy. After an hour of watching a film or TV I start to get itchy feet – I reach for my phone and endlessly scroll through Instagram passing it off as ‘networking’ to make myself feel like I’m being productive. I brainstorm new blog and video ideas, I re-work my social headers and consider my blog branding while all the time silently envying those who can get home from work and simply relax.
While the thought of a relaxing evening seems equal parts heaven and hell, I feel like a lot of people have been a bit ‘anti’ the busy ‘girlboss’ culture the blogosphere has adopted in recent months, and while I totally agree that you absolutely, certainly, do not need to be permanently working and busy I am also going to stand here in defence of being a busy girl boss because that is totally fine too.
There are some areas of my life that I resent at the moment, so therefore I’m throwing every single piece of creativity, motivation and positivity into my online space to make sure it flourishes to the best of my ability – but success only comes with hard work, and for me that hard work takes the form of late nights editing, weekends given up to photoshoots and endless networking online and in the flesh. While to some this may be extreme, for me I know that this is going to make me happy because when else could I possibly be happier than when I’m chasing my dreams?
And hell, if this crazy venture pays off and these late nights turn into the success that I’m aiming for then I will continue to work hard, continue to achieve my dreams and finally live the life I’ve been dreaming of all these years.
I guess what I’m trying to say here is, you do you. Don’t feel ashamed if you prefer to relax in the evening but equally don’t feel ashamed if you wanna spend your spare time working hard either. Do what feels right for you and remember we are all on our own journeys – we will get to where we want to be eventually, even if our course veers a little from where we first imagined!
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