It probably comes as no surprise to anyone that I worry too much. From the minute I wake up to the minute I go to sleep I’m worrying about something – did I lock the door? Is the oven still on? Do I feel healthy? Did I remember to send that important email for work? Is that tweet I saw earlier about me? What did I do wrong?
Just reading that paragraph back exhausted me a little, so you can only imagine how it feels to be in my brain 24/7. It’s something that got to me more and more as 2017 wore on, my anxiety got worse and as that got worse I found myself worrying more. Eventually, I made the decision to start seeing a therapist about it to help me get to the bottom of why my brain chooses to fixate on things this way and to help me develop ways to combat it so that in 2018 I am happier and healthier than ever.
I have so many things I want to achieve this year in both my blog and my personal life, but I know that if I continue in the way I did in 2017, my own brain will once again be my downfall and I’m not going to let that happen. It was after my first appointment with my new therapist that I realised I needed to start doing things my own way in order to make me happy.
For too long, I have worried about what other people think about what I’m doing. What they think about my outfit choices, my photos, or my content – and it takes the fun out of everything. I’m done with approaching things deliberately to please others, from now on I will wear what I want to wear, shop where I want to shop, and create what I want to create without worrying about what others think of me and I hope that in doing this, the content I create is more authentic and enjoyable.
And with that, on to the outfit…
I have wanted a pair of tartan trousers for so damn long now it’s a little bit ridiculous, but I have never been able to find the perfect pair. I first fell in love with them when I saw the babe Luanna styling them up on her blog and Instagram, and then of course when my fave gal pal Jess styled them on her blog, and it just made me want them more. I worried about buying a pair – I am not normally the type to wear colour and I didn’t know if I could pull them off, but when I found these beauties in Topshop over the Christmas break I couldn’t resist bringing them home with me and it’s fair to say I am in love.
I styled them with my fave old Missguided mesh t-shirt – possibly not the most imaginative of matches but I decided to play it safe the first time I wore them before I venture into the realm of tartan sports luxe. I also threw on my new Zara chunky shoes – I found these in Budapest but they didn’t have them in my size and I was devastated. After dreaming of them ever since, I found them in the Zara sale in Manchester and snapped them up immediately. They remind me of the old school Kickers everyone used to wear as school shoes in primary school and I adore the nod to the 90’s as well as the chunky sole which gives me an added few inches of leg and overall makes me feel all kinds of things.
What do you think of the trousers? Are they too bold a choice or do you reckon I can pull them off? Do you worry about everything under the sun too? Let me know in the comments below!
Top: Missguided | Trousers: Topshop | Shoes: Zara
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