Question: what do you do when the house you’re staying in in the USA, has a fully kitted out American Dive Bar situated in the garage? Answer: well obviously you take some blog photos…
I have to admit I really wasn’t feeling myself when these shots were taken. If you must know, I was incredibly due on and so had therefore swelled like a balloon (hormones and heat do not a happy Lucy make) and so I felt terribly self-conscious and insecure and I massively feel like that comes across in my photos.
It was while looking through the photos to decide which ones to post, that I began to reflect on my overall image and my blog as a whole this year. I feel like this year has been a very transitional year for me – I’ve experimented a lot with my style and while some things are without a doubt here to stay (here’s looking at you statement boots and Pat Butcher shirts and love of all things luxury) other things just haven’t worked for me. This, combined with my ever worsening body image issues, has changed the way I both look at my clothes and how I feel when wearing them. Recently, I’ve felt confused, uncomfortable and really not myself and have therefore come to the conclusion that really I didn’t need to change at all.
While the exercise of trying to mature my style more has been somewhat of a challenge, I do think it’s helped me to realise that actually there’s no need to fix what wasn’t broken. I love sports luxe, always have and probably always will, so why did I feel the need to try and break away from it so dramatically? 2018 is going to involve a lot more of what I’m good at, and leave the more experimental side of me in the past. Challenging myself this year has shown me where my taste still lies and in doing that is giving me the feelings of some sort of identity again. I can’t wait to rediscover some old favourite pieces and learn to incorporate the new favourites among my wardrobe too.
I’ve also been reflecting on the state of this blog and my Youtube channel in general, and how I’m going to approach them in the new year. I definitely feel like my content is lacking that polished edge that is so crucial in order to be successful. I look at what I do and what I produce and all I see is an amateur try-hard, and that’s not continuing any longer. I know I can be damn good at this if only I put my mind to it more, and therefore 2018 is firmly going to be my year. No more shoddy outfits, no more lacklustre content.
I guess those are some of the promises I’m making to myself and to you in the new year, but keep checking back for a full new years post coming up soon where I talk more in depth about what I want to achieve in 2018.