This wasn’t the post I intended to write today, but you know how it is, sometimes you just open up Blogger ready to tap away at the keys and write something about sexy clothes, and all of a sudden you find yourself writing something else entirely.
If I’m 100% honest, I didn’t really have the energy to blog properly tonight. See the thing is, I feel like shit – as in, I have a cold and I’m feeling super sorry for myself and I needed to put together a photoshop graphic for the post I had planned, and I just didn’t have the creative energy to sit there looking for the right images, and really I just wanted to see what had been uploaded onto YouTube today and then maybe binge watch a few episodes of Pretty Little Liars while I eat my Cup-A-Soup (because who can be bothered cooking when they’re poorly) and then fall asleep.
And then I felt guilty.
Which got me to thinking, why do I allow my blog to make me feel guilty so much?
I adore this space, and the last few months of feeling creatively inspired again have seen it grow more than it did for the entirety of last year which is great. I may still be a million miles away from where I want to be with it, but I’m closer than I was and so therefore I see that as an achievement. I like to post as often as I can, but the last couple of weeks life has just got in the way a bit and I haven’t had the chance to shoot outfit pictures, leaving me without much content to post this week. It’s entirely my own fault – and then with a cold on top of that, I just feel a bit meh.
I want to blog about my pretty new boots and skirt that Mum bought me at the weekend, and I want to film a lookbook as well but I just have to wait. However waiting has got me feeling like the petulant child who wants their chocolate now, not after dinner, and why is life so unfair?! etc etc.
But why the guilt? I’m sure you guys don’t mind when I don’t stick to a strict blogging schedule. I’m sure you’d rather read content that I actually want to write rather than stuff that’s been haphazardly thrown together in an effort to get something out. And I’m sure you’d all be more than understanding about me taking a break, whether it was for a day, a week or even a month if I’m just not feeling it.
But I feel like I’m letting you down. I feel like I’m letting myself down too. I read interviews with the bigger bloggers about how they never take time off even when they’ve been juggling full time work and various other things, and I’m inspired. It makes me want to blog every single day because I want to make it too – but I just can’t. I don’t have it in me. I work so hard at my day job that when I come home, some nights I just want to sit on the sofa with a book and a bar of chocolate, or I want to go out for dinner and drinks with Joseph and not worry that a blog post isn’t going up tonight.
My current resolution is to stop feeling guilty about things and just do me. Post the content I want to post, when I want to post it. And if I don’t feel like posting at all? Well that’s fine too.
How do you guys get around Blogging Guilt if you get it at all? Let me know in the comments below, I feel like I could do with some advice…