I am a creator. Since the moment I learned to pick up a pencil I have been an artist, a wordsmith. Whether I’m writing, photographing, drawing, painting or blogging, nothing makes me happier on this planet than the sensation and process of creating something. When I was a child, I would enter local art competitions, I’d take part in theatre productions, I’d sit in the field with a pencil and paper and teach myself how to draw horses from life.
As I got older, I did more theatre at a more professional level. I learned to dance, I picked up a camera properly for the first time and discovered the beauty in capturing a moment in time forever. I discovered the power of music and how it could help shape and form the identity that I still carry about with me today. I am more than just flesh and blood, there is fire in me too – fire that was quenched a few years ago, fire that is starting to burn again with startling ferocity.
I adore my job, and I’m incredibly lucky to do what I do, but recently I have felt more and more unsettled with the idea of not having enough time to create. Enough time to express myself. I visit the Tate and I go to the theatre and I realise that I’d give my right arm to be in the position where I could comfortably create for a living. Imagine waking up every morning knowing that you get to put out into the world an extension of yourself through your chosen art form?
I realise now where I have been going wrong these last few years. I have had the ideas but not the passion, not the need to put them into fruition. It’s time to stop doing things by half measures and it’s time to throw my heart and soul into what I love again. Someone has come into my life recently and although I haven’t known them long they have single handedly inspired me more than anyone else to go after my dreams. Watching them achieve spectacular things, seeing their work ethic and the passion behind it has been an important part in my realisation of what I need to do to make me happy.
This blog will no longer be a soulless representation of simply what I’m wearing that day. It will be a visual extension of my creativity. It will feature fashion, photography, literature, theatre, art, travel – anything and everything that inspires me and lights that fire in my belly to really make something of myself. I’m no longer going to sit around waiting for that moment to happen – I’m going to go out there and grab what I want from this life with both hands. I’m going to put my heart and soul into absolutely everything I do and I’m no longer going to hold back from grabbing opportunities – 2016 is a learning curve. 2016 is the year of my becoming and nobody is going to hold me back any longer.
Image by Anton – The Style Division