Enough is enough, and I need a change.
In many ways, right now I’m in the best position I’ve ever been – I have a good job at the beginning of a strong career, my own flat in a fast developing city, a great family and wonderful friends, a new relationship – things are good. And right now, my mental state reflects this too. Sure my exhaustion in the mornings is a little deeper than a healthy person’s, my inability to deal too well when things start to go wrong is still there, and I’m only just keeping my anxiety at bay – but it is at bay. And that is the important thing.
So why is now the time for me to be giving myself a ‘mental health makeover’?
Despite my overall mental state being positive, I am well aware in my battle with depression and anxiety that it could just as easily slip, and I don’t want that happening again. I want to carry on feeling this good, not needing the medication or the counselling, just the knowledge that my life is going to carry on getting better and better, filled with the best people.
Although my mental health is good right now, my physical health is anything but, and that does have a direct detrimental effect on my mental health – all a nice little circle isn’t it? So tonight I did the unthinkable. I joined the gym.
I know, I used to be a gym advocate – I used to go at least 3 times a week as well as my dance classes and despite being the fittest I ever had been I still wasn’t happy and wanted to lose weight – now I look at pictures from those days and think how insane I was but sometimes we can’t see what’s right under our noses. I know that I’ve put weight on since moving to Manchester – by no means do I think I’m fat, but I can see a change in my body – so therefore I want to get back to the size I was before. I want to tone up. I want to eat clean, clear my skin up and feel overall wholesome and good.
So not only have I joined the gym, I’ve stopped eating meat. I’m attempting to start cutting out junk food – my ultimate addiction – and I’m determined to spend less time sitting on my ass in front of Netflix. I’m also determined to start documenting my journey a little on my blog – maybe a weekly Sunday post or something along those lines.
Do you sometimes feel like you need a lifestyle overhaul? What are your top tips for feeling healthy and happy?