I started 2014 full of hope for a better year. I didn’t want to set too many resolutions that I knew wouldn’t be kept, so instead I decided that I would set myself two goals for the year, things that I really wanted to change in my life.
The first was to make more memories with my friends. 2013 was a year dedicated to a very toxic relationship and therefore when we got to New Years Eve and everyone was posting those instagram videos of their years with their friends, it made me sad as I had no memories with the people most important to me, no pictures, nothing to remember the year by. I vowed that in 2014 I would spend more time with those closest to me, cherish them and collect as many photos and souvenirs from the year that I could.
Remembering times spent with those closest to you is such an important thing that I think we all probably take for granted, but one day our lives will have passed us by. We’ll be in the twilight years of our lives and by that point all we’ll have is our memories, those pictures that may have seemed so trivial in the past will then become so important. Those names and faces that may have faded from our lives will still be prominent in our memories.
My other aim was to get rid of my anxiety disorder. Something a little less easy to achieve but no less important, I wanted to live a life unencumbered by such a crippling illness. I wanted to be able to go out with my friends, experience new places, eat meals in restaurants and feel like a normal 20-something girl rather than being crippled with panic attacks as soon as I left the house.
And I’m so pleased to say that I have achieved both things! Looking through my polaroids from the year today, I’ve felt so nostalgic and so unbelievably happy to be blessed with a group of incredible friends and family and for the year that I’ve had, and I cannot wait for the next one – it’s only going to get better.