I seem to be in a particularly reflective mood at the moment, in particular, where my life and more specifically what I am doing with it, is concerned. I think I have changed so much over the last 12 months, and in changing, my aspirations have changed as well.

12 months ago I never thought that I’d be blogging. I loved clothes but didn’t have the confidence in myself to experiment with them or talk about my love for them, I thought I’d never be taken seriously and my lack of confidence held me back from doing so many things. This year has been so positive in terms of my self belief, but yet that annoying voice in the back of my head is still doubting everything that I do.

I’d be lying if I didn’t admit to dreaming that one day this blog will be big enough for me to make money from, or forge a career from. I know that its a dream so many others have as well, and I’m under no illusion that it will actually happen, but I think in dreaming this it causes me to frequently compare what I do to those bigger bloggers out there who are paving the way for us in the industry, which can be both a positive and negative exercise depending on your mindset at the time. One thing that I have noticed, is that each and every one of them is completely themselves. They don’t put on an act, they don’t pretend to be someone they’re not. They’re totally true to themselves and we love them all for it – but if I don’t know who I am yet, how can I become a credible blogger?

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t put on an act on here in the slightest, what you see will always be exactly what you get with me, but I just wonder if perhaps my insecurities in myself become apparent to others around me, and maybe they’re still holding me back?

And that’s about as personal as it’s ever going to get on here! Sunday afternoon ramblings over, I’m going to play with my new camera and get a bit creative.

I hope you’re all having a brilliant weekend.

Lucy-J xo


  1. Jenny
    November 17, 2014 / 2:08 am

    You are adorable. I've only been blogging for 3 months (as of tomorrow) and I was also terrified. My passion is makeup, and with there being so many beauty bloggers out there… it seemed pointless. I finally gathered up the courage to do it for myself and see where it got me. I've found the blogging community to be so kind and uplifting, and my confidence has soared since I started blogging! I understand looking at some of the really successful bloggers and feeling both encouraged and discouraged. Just be you, make some blogging friends, and if success is meant to come your way, it will :)xxJenny // Mish Mosh Makeup

    • Lucy-J
      November 19, 2014 / 10:04 pm

      That's such a good way of looking at it! I definitely want to make more blogging friends, I just find that I'm so shy when it comes to meeting new people – but that's something that I will overcome on my own I'm sure :)Thank you for such a lovely comment <3

  2. Meg Says
    November 17, 2014 / 8:13 am

    I really enjoyed reading this post, as I'm feeling a similar way at the moment. I started blogging after I was diagnosed with an incurable illness and unfortunately had to leave my university degree, and although I truly love blogging I don't have the energy (thanks to my illness!) to put as much into it as I'd like to. It can be hard looking at 'bigger' bloggers as you see how much work has to go in and I know that I can't achieve that with the way my health currently is. All we can do is our best – the people who read our blogs are the ones who matter, and as long as we're enjoying what we're doing I think that's all that counts! If a career can be forged through blogging then that's absolutely amazing, but if it remains a hobby then that's fine, too. I always feel so much happier in myself when I try to not to overthink things – classic worrier! – and think about the smaller picture rather than where my blog could take me if I only had better health. I can't change my situation but I can put my 100% into blogging, even if that 100% isn't the same as someone else's. For what it's worth I love your writing and think you're doing a wonderful job :)Meg at Meg Says

    • Lucy-J
      November 19, 2014 / 10:05 pm

      Oh honey, I'm so sorry to hear about your illness, sending lots of love, hugs & positive thinking your way <33Thank you so much for your lovely kind words about my writing, it really does mean a lot to me to hear that people actually like what I have to say and are interested in my opinions, sometimes it kinda feels as though I'm just writing for myself which is never a bad thing, but it's great to feel appreciated! xo

  3. Eleanor Humphries
    November 17, 2014 / 5:43 pm

    This is such a lovely post, it's so true that comparing yourself to big bloggers can be a good and bad thing! I also love your hat x eleanor's adventures // UK Fashion & Beauty Blog

    • Lucy-J
      November 19, 2014 / 10:06 pm

      Thank you lovely! You'll see more of the hat in my outfit post tomorrow 🙂 xo

  4. Lola Spooks
    November 17, 2014 / 6:37 pm

    Think positive regarding making a career from blogging. If it's what you want then you can make it happen :)Lou | ♥

    • Lucy-J
      November 19, 2014 / 10:06 pm

      Thank you honey, I will do <3

  5. steinhard
    December 4, 2014 / 9:25 am

    I love this post, I also sometimes feel like this is not for me, when I read BIG bloggers posts, but then I think – I'm doing this for myself, not for someone who thinks this is somehow wrong. Just keep on Your way and belive in Yourself and with time You will get everything You deserve 🙂

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