WHY I'M QUITTING SHOPPING TO GAIN CONFIDENCE

Manchester Fashion Blogger
I'm quitting shopping for a while.
There, I said it.
This week I've spent some savings on my last lot of clothes and shoes for a while (haul to follow, gonna film it next week after I've spent my MAC voucher this weekend) and that's it for me.

Now this was a pretty tough decision to make. I am a self confessed shopaholic. Buying new clothes gives me a rush of happiness that not a lot else brings. Which is a bit stupid really considering it's so materialistic but hell whatever makes you happy I guess.

But recently I've not been happy. I touched a little on this in my last post when I mentioned my weight gain following a stressful few months - I've been trying so hard on here to embrace my body, love the new curves and keep projecting my confidence but if I'm honest my confidence is long gone.

I mean I love the novelty of having boobs for the first time. Just gonna lay that on the line - naturally my body is tiny. I have a tiny frame, I'm really short and therefore I'm pretty much flat-chested but for the first time ever I actually have a chest. And it's the first place I lose weight from too so I better get ready to kiss goodbye (not literally, that would be weird).

But my chest is the only positive thing about this gain. I go to try on clothes and I feel miserable - nothing fits me correctly anymore and I feel unattractive and disgusted at what I see. I look in the mirror when I get out of the shower and I cry. You may find this melodramatic because I am by no means fat, but I have noticed changes in my body that I really do not like and it is time to make a change.

I'm making a real effort with my diet, and aside from the occasional hormonal binges on chocolate I'm not doing too badly. I've purchased a workout DVD which I'm trying to do at least three times a week and in 2 weeks time I see a personal trainer for the first time.

I'm going to get my body and my confidence back, I truly am. But until that point I am spending no more on shoes or clothes. I am going to save my money, put it towards a holiday or a Macbook or just enjoying myself. Maybe even save it completely until I'm happy with who I am and how I look so that I can enjoy spending it on clothes that befit the new me and my new life. This is all part of the reinvention.

The outfit posts will continue as normal though so never fear, you just might see some familiar items appearing again!

If anyone has any great workouts for your stomach, bum and thigh areas please let me know! I'd appreciate all the help I can get!

7 comments:

  1. I love working out with Blogilates' workouts. Cassey Ho is such a good motivator.

    Rachel | www.currentlyrachel.com

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    1. Thank you! I'll definitely try those out! xo

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  2. I was going through your outfit posts and I couldn't help but be in awe of how amazing your body is (especially the crop top post). I understand when you have a certain body and you're satisfied with it but it worsens or you gain weight, you can be very miserable. Obviously, it's hard to get the perfect body but when instead of going up, you go down; it's never a positive thing but I urge you to not feel that way. You are beautiful and even if you're not satisfied with your body, you need to believe in yourself, set a goal and get there. It was tough for me to start working out regularly and as my family is really active and healthy and my parents played all sorts of sports in high school and college but when I did, I not only looked good but felt good and I knew I was getting to a healthier and positive mind set even if I wasn't seeing results the second I started working out. My friends would question why I worked out, claiming that I wasn't even fat but I just told them it was to get healthier and have a more positive approach on life. So my advice to you is to be more positive and set goals for yourself and take steps to get there. I believe in you although I do not know you. I know you'll get there.
    As for any workouts, I would advice you to follow the stronger program by Nicky Holender on the live strong women channel on Youtube and do the 10-15 minute intense ab workouts by Rebecca Louise on XHIT daily on Youtube. They are literally game changers.
    All the best Lucy,
    Zoha x
    zoeandtima.blogspot.com

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    1. Oh my gosh seriously thank you so much! This comment meant the absolute world to me, I can't even begin to describe it!
      I'm really glad that you understand where I'm coming from with the need to make changes to my body and thank you so much for the wonderful advice too <3

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  3. I admire your commitment to changing yourself for the best! An app I love for getting fit is Nike Workout, I highly recommend it! (It's free by the way!) Also, where are the cushions from in your photo?

    Alice | http://alicelester.blogspot.co.uk/

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  4. I can completely relate to this post. I have been feeling the exact same recently & I am determined to get my body back. Thank you for talking about this, your motivation has really helped me! I wish you the best with your goals!

    Nixie xx

    Nixie--Pixie | Fashion | Beauty | Lifestyle |

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    1. Aww thank you so much for such a lovely comment! I'm really glad I've helped you with this post and I wish you all the best with your goals too! Make sure you let me know how you get on :) xo

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