BLOGGING | DOWN BUT NOT OUT

Fashion blogging advice

It's a funny old world isn't it, the blogosphere?

I started LJLV almost a year ago now, and in that year I have changed so much as a person and a blogger it's almost unrecognisable. I think, when I first started this little online space, I had no idea who I actually was but maybe a small inkling of who I wanted to be.
I wanted to feel worthy, I wanted to feel a part of something. I wanted people to respect my opinion, realise that I had something to say, that my words were important and that I, as an individual was not the total waste of space I spent nigh on 20 years believing that I was #daddyissues.

Beginning to style outfits and write daily posts took over my life. I was still training 2 hours a day 7 days a week for dancing as well and my life became one huge blur. I felt like I was thriving under the pressure, itching to get home to write my next post, shoot an outfit or two, write a review or simply spend my time reading other blogs. My following started to increase, I had brand and PR collaborations beginning to filter in, and when I got invited to my first blogging event I was so unbelievably happy that people were finally starting to take me seriously, I finally fitted in somewhere. I felt like I was part of something.  I always get like this when I start a new hobby, I completely and utterly immerse myself in it, and then I burn out.

Recently, I've felt like I've been enjoying blogging less and less. Not in an 'I don't want to do it anymore' kind of way, more of a lacking inspiration and wondering where I fit in in the grand scheme of things kind of way. I cut my posting down to three days a week so that I actually had time to breathe, see my friends and have a life on top of my work schedule - and in doing so my views, comments, PR collaborations and event invites have completely dried up. It's almost as though if I'm not working myself to exhaustion, I'm not good enough. And I don't like that.

And I think that's why I've started to enjoy blogging less.

I would absolutely adore to be able to do this full time. To run my blog and my YouTube channel as a business, to spend every day creating content and really allowing this blog to become what I know it could be, but unfortunately I don't have that luxury and therefore I need to work. Working full time and blogging is difficult, I won't sugar coat it.

I come in from work exhausted, having spent the last 8 hours staring at a computer screen and frantically trying to make my company's social channels grow, I then come home and do the same with my own. It's tiring. Sometimes, when I come home I want to do nothing more than curl up in my onesie on the sofa with  a book and not look at another screen all day, and then I remember there's a Twitter chat that night, or that I need to finish editing a video, or that it's a blog post day.

I don't really know where I'm going with this post, I think I just needed an outlet to rant. I don't like negativity on my blog at all, I like to keep it a positive and happy space but I guess sometimes you just need to say what you need to say. Please, nobody take this as me being ungrateful for the opportunities that I have had through blogging, or that I want to quit or anything like that because that's not the case at all.

I guess I'm just a bit sad that unless I'm working myself to absolute exhaustion, I don't seem to get anywhere at all. But then, on the flipside, you get out what you put in. Maybe I just need to make more effort. Personally I think that my content and blog are looking better than ever at the moment, but that's just a matter of opinion.

I'm off to get dressed, put some makeup on and decide what outfit to shoot today.

I'm down but not out.

17 comments:

  1. It's okay to say you need a break and put your blog on the back burner for a bit to allow yourself to readjust your life and prioritise. It's not easy being a blogger and having to work or study at the same time, but that passion keeps you going. Take a break, remind yourself why you started blogging and get into it again!

    Aftab | Fresh And Fearless

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    1. Thank you babe <3 It's not that I want a break as such, it's more that I wish my blogging calendar of 3 times a week was acceptable for everyone else. I've sat and brainstormed SO many post ideas tonight so I'm feeling a bit happier, going to attempt to blog 5 times a week now and see if that helps at all :) xo

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  2. I totally get this post, I feel exactly the same. I love blogging but I don't have the time currently to properly enjoying posting because of the time pressure. But if it makes you feel better all your posts are wonderful to read and your outfits are always awesome! xx

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    1. Thank you honey I appreciate that so much! I'm going to try and up my game a little again though, after having a brainstorming session tonight its made me realise that what I've been missing recently is the thought behind posts. I've just been shooting whatever outfit comes to me that day rather than taking the time to actually consider what I want to post about or what I want to shoot so hopefully taking a new approach to things will help! xo

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  3. I totally feel ya girl. Have you considered shooting/writing all your posts on the weekend and then just scheduling to publish during the week? That way you can just chill when you get home from work every day :)

    COOCOO FOR COCO

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    1. I shoot everything at the weekend anyway but I'm definitely going to try and start writing at the weekend as well, even if I just set aside Sunday night for writing it should hopefully set me up for a better week :) xo

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  4. I completely see where you're coming from with this. It's so hard when the the market is already to saturated.. At least YOU'RE happy with your blog! X

    Chilled summer evening look over at-
    hailandharmony.blogspot.ie
    // BLOGLOVIN

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    1. Thank you! I think that's exactly the problem, blogging has become so popular recently that everyone is doing it, and while that is awesome and they should totally embrace this crazy world, the more of us there are the harder its going to become to stand out. I guess we've just got to all try and keep ahead of the curve and figure it out as it comes! xo

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  5. please don't ever stop blogging, i love your blog. your outfits are amazing and I'm in love with your tattoos! I no what you mean when you feel down about your but as a loyal fan I can honestly say when I see you have a new post I'm excited to see your outfits! hope you feel better about it soon!

    Aine Oh

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    1. Aww honey thank you SO much, your comment meant such a lot to me <3 Don't worry, I don't intend to stop blogging, I just need to find a blogging schedule that works for me and also maximises my blog's potential too! <3

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  6. Loved reading this. Would love it if you could check out my latest spring styling lookbook!
    Kisses xo | From Aliona With Love 

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  7. I can totally understand where you're coming from but just know that for me & i'm sure many more, i love to see your blog posts and you do you, at your own pace.
    Good luck lovely.
    we rise & we fall | Poppy
    http://www.pr0binson.blogspot.co.uk
    xo

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    1. Thank you so much lovely, it honestly means the absolute world to me to hear that people do enjoy the content I put together <3

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  8. I know where you're coming from with this post! sometimes blogging can seem like such a chore when you get worried about how many posts you're producing etc but I think it's good to remember that for most of us it is just a hobby and there's no need to get down about it :)

    Beth x

    Bethany Georgina

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